Monday, December 6, 2010

The Weekend!

I hope everyone had a good weekend. I know we did. Although the weekends never quite seem to be long enough.

This weekend was good, especially eating wise. I did great and stayed OP all weekend, I’ve been such a good little WW’r! And to make it better, I’m learning to stick to the new plan! I’m loving that fruit (and veggies) are free, even if it did mean that points of my other favorites went up.

DH is also doing very very well staying OP. About the only time he complains is on Sundays when we go out to eat with family and everything is so many points, and he can’t get what he normally eats. But this first week back OP from his Thanksgiving Eating (and leftovers), he lost almost 7 pounds, I’m sure some of which was water weight from eating so bad. But still, way to go DH. He only has about 10 more pounds until he gets where he would like to be. I hope it takes him a month or two at least, because with him, it’s not so much about the Weight Loss as I’m trying to teach him to make smarter choices, and portion control.

DH was never one of those guys that had a weight problem (and really, even today, he is only about 10lbs over weight). In fact, when DH and I met in 2004, he was about 60lbs lighter than he is today. He HAD a hyperactive thyroid, and he could literally eat ANYTHING he wanted and not gain an ounce (hence the beginning to my weight issue!). Well overtime, his hyperactive thyroid has become normal, and he no longer can eat anything, and unfortunately his eating style didn’t change, hence the 60lbs of gained weight in 6 years.

So really for him, this isn’t about losing the weight, although I do think it will help lower his cholesterol, give him more energy and just in general make him feel better. It’s more about learning healthy eating habits and maintaining a healthy weight. It’s easy to let your weight get out of control before you know it, and I didn’t want to see that happen with him.

So I lost 1.6 pounds since my last weigh in, and I was really happy with that. The last time I had weighed was the Wednesday before Thanksgiving, so on that loss was Thanksgiving eating, and three days of not so great eating while trying to get the hang of the new plan. So I will definitely take it. I’m excited for this weeks weigh in, especially if I can keep rocking the plan the way I have been. I’m really really hoping that even though the holidays are this month I can still manage to lose the 5 or 6 pounds I want too.

Other than that, not too much going on here in Michigan. I’m waiting for the Baseball winter meetings to see how my Tigers round out for next year, and then of course excited to get to the College Football Bowl Games, but other than that, Nothing terribly exciting.

Hope everyone has healthy and OP week!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Weigh In

Well just a quick Weigh In post! I weighed this morning and lost 1.6 pounds! I'm more then happy with that!

Enjoy your Saturdays!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

December Goals

Ok, so I was MIA yesterday, but I swear, I’m not dropping back off the blogging bandwagon! I first want to touch on some goals for December, and then hit on some struggles I’m having, primarily with the new WW program.

First, I want to set three goals for December

1. Run, Try to get in most, if not all of my scheduled runs. I understand sickness can happen and sideline things, or an injury, but don’t “opt out” of runs I could normally go on.

2. Stay OP as well as possible, giving myself a lenient Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Being lenient on myself seemed to work best for Thanksgiving, so that will be my stance on the Christmas Holidays as well. New Years shouldn’t be much of an issue for me.

3. Hmm, now for Weight Loss Goals. I think I’m going to shoot for losing 6lbs in the month of December, that would put me at 156.4lbs when I weigh in on Christmas Day (which I may just move up to Christmas Eve morning). I really think I can do this. I’ve been running and doing pretty well OP (barring a few issues this week), so 6 pounds it is.

Well there the goals are. I will definitely include them in a wrap up at the end of December. I’m looking forward to a positive December and feeling A LOT better.
It’s amazing to me that I’ve only been back on WW’s for a couple weeks, but I feel so so much better. Even my clothes already fit better (albeit not as well as I would like them to fit), but it’s just amazing what some exercise and eating right can do for your body. You often forget how good you can feel when you’ve gotten stuck in a rut of gaining weight and feeling bad. But I’m so glad to have that feeling back in my life, I’m happier this way.

Ok, so my new feelings about the new WW’s plan. Well, I like it in principle. I was doing a lot of the things they are trying to promote through the new plan, already on the Old Plan, I tried to pick healthy, less processed foods, and eat a lot of fruits and veggies. But for some reason I can’t seem to get into the swing of the new plan, I have no idea why.

When I would lose a point before with WWs I always found it hard to adjust to having even just one less point I could spend throughout the day. Now, I’m dealing with having more points, and I feel like I should be able to go buck wild, and that’s exactly what happened yesterday. I don’t know why I can’t wrap my head around having more points (even tho my other stuff costs more points now).

So what am I doing? I’m stopping the bad days before I get too off plan, today I’m doing exactly what I was doing for the two weeks prior. I’m following the older points system, I will enter everything into the new points tracker eventually, but I’m doing EXACTLY what I’ve done before. I have routine, I like routine, and any upset to that throws me through a loop, so right now I’m doing what I know.

This doesn’t mean I won’t go over to the new plan, it just means for right now, I don’t want to get out of the groove I’ve been in, and I’m gonna stick with this.

I hope everyone is having a healthy and OP day!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

November Wrap

My Short and Sweet November Wrap-up, bullet point style.

• I’m working hard to stay on plan, prior to them switching the plan, I was doing fantastic. For some reason the new plan is throwing me through a loop, I don’t know if I see all those points and get giddy or what!
• We will see what my weight loss on Saturday brings to give a final, I lost X pounds in November, but I’m thinking I will have made my November goal of ending up at 162 pounds, which is a 2 pound loss in two weeks, with Thanksgiving thrown in there, not to shabby, a pound a week, I will take it.
• Running, I’ve been doing good running, and since I restarted, I haven’t missed a run. However I’m dealing with a little bit of bronchitis (which I have meds for!), so I will be taking tonight off, I will just make up the run another night this week in order to give my body some rest.

Other than that nothing terribly new. I’m just trying to adjust to the new plan, as I said for some reason I’m having a hard time, it’s like I see all those points (and I’m aware there aren’t really more points, it just seems that way!), but I just go nuts, so I’m trying to be gentle and remind myself, sometimes change can take a few days to get the hang of.

Tomorrow, December goals!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Week # 2!

Hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving.

I had a great one myself, We had dinner at my Mom’s house, and eventually trekked on over to the in laws house for a second dinner. But I did so good on my eating. In previous years, when I was on WW’s, I would often have a free for all when it came to food for the holidays, I ate everything that wasn’t tied down, and enjoyed every bite.

I don’t really know why this year was different. Maybe it was that we were busy and running, or maybe it’s cause I just started WW’s again seriously and didn’t want to get sidetracked that much, but whatever it was it sure helped. I went into the day with a very laid back attitude, if I wanted it, I was going to eat it, afterall it was Thanksgiving and it was once a year. But I also went into the day with a “don’t overstuff yourself” attitude, and that’s exactly what I did. In fact, yesterday mid day I even weighed myself and I was showing down just under a pound from my Wednesday Weigh In, so maybe a nice loss this week will be my reward for a well played Thanksgiving.

DH has also been doing WW’s, and needless to say, Thanksgiving wasn’t so hot for him. But lets back up. His cholesterol is a bit high, and he is a bit overweight (by about 5 to 10lbs) so after a recent trip to the doctors, I convinced him if he just lost 15 pounds his cholesterol would go down and he would feel better, so he agreed to do WW’s with me. Well it came time for him first weigh in, and he told me he would laugh when he didn’t lose anything, since he had been on plan all week. Well come to weigh in, and in less then a week he lost almost 4 pounds! Go DH! Well, he weighed yesterday, and he was back up about 6 pounds, so today he is back on the boat. We actually got him a subscription to WW’s online, since it changed so drastically as of today.

So about the new plan, what is everyones feelings on it? Seems like most people on the Message Boards either love it or hate it at this point in time, and there are a ton of posts about how peoples favorite low point treats have went *gasp* up in points.

Here’s my thoughts. WW’s is FINALLY trying to get the processed overly carb-loaded food out of our diets, and they are FINALLY trying to get people to eat more fruits and veggies by making them no points. Sure our Fiber.One Bars or Giant.Fudge Bars are now respectively higher in points, as are the Hostess.100 calorie packs, but who needs that stuff? And on top of that, it may be more points, but that Banana is now FREE! And you get more points! And more Weekly Points, so where really is there something to complain about? There isn’t, WW’s spends millions on research, and their goal is to make us lose weight, so don’t you think they would continue to want people to do that? If people stop losing weight they are going to stop making money! Plus, many of us who have been on weight loss programs before have cleaned up our eating already, and now WW’s is just reinforcing that was the right decision.

So my overall verdict, calm down, it’s a change….but change is good!

Hope everyone is having a fantastic day, I’ll be back around later in the week!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Weigh in #1

Well, I'm super busy today, but I wanted to stop by and post my weigh in results for week on of being back on track.

I lost 1.6 pounds this week.

I would have loved to see more, but being that I had a bad day on Monday with eating, and the fact that TOM is around the corner, I will definitely take it!

Have a great and Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Day #7 -Back on Track

I hope everyones weekends went well!

Mine did, and I even pretty much stayed OP. I’ll admit that my being OP has been a little more lax that it used to be, but I figure if I’m staying pretty close to plan for now, I’m doing LEAPS and BOUNDS better then I was, and I’m trying to improve on everything a little at a time. Nothing changes overnight.

However on a high note, I do feel like my clothes are fitting better, and are more comfortable, so even though the scale wasn’t showing anything when I spot checked (I think TOM is around the corner), I think my body is changing, and it feels great.

Little NSV this weekend. I didn’t want to run on Friday even though I had a scheduled run, since it was really windy, and I really hate running when it’s crazy windy, so I put off the run, and I ended up running on Saturday Morning instead. Well come yesterday, I didn’t feel like running again, one because I was tired from running the day before, and I knew Sundays run was longer, plus I was tired and feeling like I was getting a cold, but I ran anyways. As much as I tried to talk myself out of running, I kept saying no no I should run! So I’m hitting that point that I can’t talk myself out of it, and that’s a great thing.

And, I made two healthy recipes for the DH and I this weekend, and he liked them both, which is great. He’s pretty much your typically DH he doesn’t like me messing with his food, removing the fat, cheese and all the good stuff. But I made the Chiminchangas I told you about Friday and I make Turkey Meatloaf on Saturday and he loved them both…so score!

Also, DH has been trying to follow WW’s. It’s kinda cute to watch him. The first day he had points left over and was bragging how he wasn’t hungry and this was way easy, anyone could do it. Well by yesterday he was singing a different tune. He was saying how he just simply needed more food then this and he couldn’t live on this. The most suprising for him was we went to Max and Ermas for lunch, and I got my normal, but his normal wasn’t on their healthy menu, so he got the Caribbean chicken. Well that Chicken was 12 points, he couldn’t believe that chicken was 12 points. I told him, well you can only imagine how much your normal meal is then! So needless to say he went over his points yesterday. It’s a learning curve and he’ll get it. He only has about 15 pounds to lose, so it shouldn’t take him long, but hopefully we can clean up his eating habits in the process.

How is today going OP? Well it could be better, it could be a whole lot worse. So we’ll see how the rest of the day goes!

Running Stats for last week, 4 runs, 11.31 miles almost 2 and a half hours of activity and 987 Calories burned….go me!

Anyways, hope you guys have a great week, I’ll be back before Thanksgiving!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Day #5- Week #1

Well I am at the start of Day #5 of being back on Weight Watchers, and really I’ve been doing quite well. This morning I did have some candy I shouldn’t have had, but That’s what Flex Points are for right?

In my previous weight loss stint, I didn’t use Flex Points, I guess I figured if I didn’t use them, or activity points, I would lose quicker. I don’t know that is necessarily true now that I think back on it. Of course I don’t have any proof.
My first weight loss journey that time took me a LONG time, in fact it took 19 months to lose 27 pounds. Now there was stints where I wasn’t following, wasn’t trying, ect. But on average that is 1.7lbs per month, now when I was actually losing weight, I was losing at a rate of about 1.2 pounds per week.

But I often look at the Flex Points now and think, would I have adhered to the plan better if I spent those points? Would I have not had bad days, where I felt like I ate everything I wasn’t suppose to if I used those points? Would I actually have lost weight faster, or maybe more consistently over time?

I often wonder about these things. As hard as it is for me, I’m going to try to use them. It’s sad, whenever I go beyond my “22 points” per day limit (even if I have all 35 flexies left), I feel like I’ve somehow cheated, and I’m not OP anymore! So I’m trying to get into this mindset, I’m going to try to use most, if not all of my Flex Points and see where that takes me. Maybe I will lose, Maybe I won’t, but I can always readjust, and what really is the race to the finish? It’s a life long journey anyways.

On that note, I’ve been doing pretty good. I have stayed OP for four whole days, and besides the Reese Peanut Butter cup/Flex Point debacle earlier, I think today will be OP also. It’s so hard to get back into the swing of things when I’ve been out of the game for so long.

Also, my running has been going good. I’ve done 3 of my 4 runs this week, with the 4th one being tonight. I’m slow, and I’m out of shape, but I will get there. I’m excited to be running again, and I’m already getting the “disease” where I feel guilty if I don’t run, and want to run on days I have scheduled aside for rest. That’s a good thing though!

Tonight I am making Turkey and Cheese Enchiladas for dinner and praying that the hubby likes. He really could spare about 10-15lbs, so I’m hoping to be able to get him on board with the Weight Watchers mentality. Even if he’s not counting points, just getting him into the mindset of eating healthier and watching his portions would help immensely I’m sure.

No real plans here for the weekend, mainly just getting ready for the Thanksgiving holiday, shopping so I can avoid the stores come Tuesday or Wednesday when they are nuts.

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Where the heck have I been?

Where the heck have I been, well that’s probably a good question. There is no good excuse for not blogging, there is no good excuse for letting my health and my weight go, but any way you cut it, I’ve been busy. Been busy planning a wedding, then adjusting to life as a married woman.

I’ve pretty much gained back most of my weight, as you can see, I’m at 164, which 168 is where I started in 2007. So I guess the good thing is that I didn’t gain it ALL back, the bad part is that I’m basically starting over again. But I’m happy and looking forward to taking control of my life and my weight. I don’t feel good when I don’t eat properly, and well, I haven’t been, so I haven’t been feeling good.

When I lost weight I was confident, felt super sexy and slim, and more importantly I was crazy happy and fit. With the weight gain, I’ve seen myself slide into feeling fat, unconfident and a lot of self loathing. I don’t just have myself to worry about anymore, I have the hubby, the step son and two dogs that deserve me being happy and healthy.

So, in the last 6 months or so, things have been busy. In May the hubby moved in, which was quite a change being that I went from being alone to having hubby and a 3 year old there all the time! Crazy! Then in September, we got married , and proceeded to go on a cruise for the honeymoon. It’s been two months, and I’m honestly not sure what we’ve done in the past two months, but it sure has seemed busy. Below are a few wedding pictures.



So where does this leave me? I’ve been on Weight Watchers again for two whole days (it starts one day at a time) and I’m doing pretty good far. I’m a little nervous about the upcoming changes to the weight watchers program, but I’m excited about it too. I’ve long thought that they don’t put enough emphasis on the healthy food, and just look at Calories, Fat and Fiber, and it looks like they are getting away from that. So nervous and excited.

I’ve been running again, unfortunately I’m so out of shape, and heavier then I was before, so my mileage is really low, and I intend to keep it that way for at least a few weeks again to get a little back in shape again before I jump into more miles.

So my goals for the rest of November are pretty simple. Follow Weight Watchers, allowing a day of moderate eating for thanksgiving, lose 2 pounds and do all my planned runs (which is 4 days a week). Seems pretty simple right? Well when your first getting back into the swing of things, things aren’t as simple as they seem.

So here’s to one step at a time, and one day at a time!

Is anyone still around?

**Sticks head out from around the corner**

Does anyone even still have me on their readers? Well if they do, I'm back, and look for an update post soon...with wedding pictures!

Monday, April 5, 2010

The 6 W's!

"The Six W's: Work will win when wishing won't."
-- Todd Blackledge

Sorry, this attempting to post everyday thing isn't working out quite as I had hoped, but I've been better about posting than I was, so I'll take that.

I really like today's quote, it's true, everything work having comes hard, and it takes work. Wishing we were 20lbs lighter certainly isn't going to help us get there, but working hard towards that goal will.

So how did my easter weekend go? Well besides the "healthy eating" part of it, it went really really well. We had the little one all weekend, so those weekends are always so much fun, I miss him on the weekends that we don't have him. So we enjoyed our weekend.

The eating was way less than stellar, but I'll have to admit, today, I was happy to go back to eating my good food, I missed it. I have a good chance to get on track, and stay on track these next two weeks, and I'm going to take advantage of it. I'm going to work really hard, to make sure I meet (or exceed) my goals this month.

So that leads me to what my goals will be for the month of April. I'm going to keep them pretty simple.

1. I'd like to lose 6lbs. I think it's doable, and if I can manage to melt away 6lbs a month for three months, it will put me at near my goal weight for my first dress fitting. A girl can work towards something right?

2. I'd like to continue my running. I've been struggling a bit the last two runs, they've not been good, and I think I'm needing a week of reducing mileage, so I am going to do it. In the past I would just push through it, then I would end up overtired, overtrained and unmotivated. So I'm gonna take a cut back week, and keep building on that mileage and continue my training plan.

3. I know this sounds kind of general, but I want to have more good days then bad. My months (or the last year) have been a cluster of horrid eating days sprinkled with a good couple days here and there, but I'd really like to start the change this month and get back to heading in the right direction.

So that's it, three simple goals. I think it's totally doable and can be achieved. Also, I'm only going to weigh in at the beginning of may to see the loss. I don't want to get too wrapped up in that number. I'd rather get wrapped up in how I'm feeling, and how my clothes are fitting, not the number on the scale.

Anyways, off to finish watching my very first Tigers game of the Season, which we are currently winning....GO TIGERS!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

The Impossible...

“The only way of finding the limits of the possible
is by going beyond them into the impossible.”
Arthur C. Clarke

Well I’m wrapping up my first week of being back to blogging, and really really trying to get back on track. How have I done this week? It could have been better certainly, but lately I’ve had weeks that were a whole lot worse, so in retrospect looking back, I did really well, out of 7 days, 5 were on plan, so I will take that for what it is. It’s an improvement from what it has been.

I used to most a motivational quote everyday, kind of as a way to inspire myself, and a way to inspire others, so I decided to start doing that again. Today’s quote I think we’ve all been there, we’ve all pushed through what we thought is possible, and before we know it, we are doing something, or living life in a way in which we never thought was possible. It’s a great feeling when that happens. I remember the first time (as an adult, out of High School) I ran 2 miles in a row without stopping; it was such an awesome feeling. I never dreamed it possible that I could be a runner, but I pushed myself, and I became a runner. And the longest run to date I have run is 8 miles, which seemed so impossible, but it’s not when you push yourself.

It’s kinda of the way I looked at the weight loss thing when I first started it. My roommate and I decided on a whim to start weight watchers in January of 2006. I said, heck, if I can’t do it, I can’t do it, but we’ll see. And two years later, I had went from sedentary, and the higher end of my healthy weight range, to almost 30lbs lighter and running 20 miles a week. It was quite the accomplishment, and I never dreamed I could have done it.

Now here I am today, I often feel like I can’t do this again. But I remember I have before, and I have proved it’s possible. So I know that I can do it, it’s just about finding the motivation to do it again. And I’m slowly but surely finding my motivation again. I know how good I felt, I know how confident and healthy I was, and I want to get back there, and I know I will.

Tomorrow is my weigh in, and truthfully I’m not expecting a whole lot, I haven’t weighed in since the beginning of March, and I had A LOT of bad days between the beginning of March and now. I expect to see a gain of a few pounds at least, but that’s ok, I can handle it. Tomorrow after my weigh in, I’ll be back here to set some goals for the month of April.

I’ve still been running, I ran the 14 miles that I had scheduled this week, and all my runs were great except for today, which, even though it was not a great run was an accomplishment in itself. I was not feeling good towards the end of work, I was tired, I was shaky and I just did not feel like running (In part due to my allergies which become miserable this time of year), but instead of putting my run off, I went out, and I did the miles I had planned on doing. It was slow, and involved stopping and starting, and stopping and walking (which I hardly ever do), but I pushed through and finished the run, even though I did not feel like it. So GO ME!

Anyways, back tomorrow with an updated weight so I can see just how many pounds I have to lose before this wedding ;) Hope everyone is having a healthy and happy day!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Day #5

Today has been a success!

I've learned, it seems for some reason when I eat more carbs in the morning, I seem to have more hunger and cravings, if I mainly have protein in the morning, until lunch, I seem to do better. Whether or not this is just a mental thing, or actually something that helps, I don't know, but I'll go with it for now.

Today I've stayed OP and within my points so far, and I haven't let the candy bowl here at work call to me, which is GREAT! we'll see how the rest of the day goes, but it's looking to me like Day 5 will be great.

We had pre-martial stuff last night, and that went well. We had to take some test, which apparently helps identify areas where we disagree so that we have to talk about them with a therapist and work them out. I'm really impartial, but if they think it will help us , I say go for it.

I didn't run last night, but I plan to tonight, plan to run 4 miles I think. It's gorgeous here today, It is like 55 and sunny with hardly any wind, so I'm going to take advantage of it, and get outside for my second longest run this week.

This weekend is suppose be in the 70s, in Michigan nonetheless! I don't know why mother nature is playing tricks on us, but I'll take what I can get!

Other exciting new, I put a deposit on my wedding dress today! Woo Hoo! They had one I tried on that actually fit, so I went ahead and bought it off the rack, I got $100 off for doing so. So now I just have to lose a few of these pounds so I look even better in it :)

Anyways, that's it for today, I hope everyone is having a healthy, Happy and OP day!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Day # 4

Well, Day #4 didn't go so well, but instead of dwelling on it, and letting it get to me, I'm going to tell you exactly how awesome I was all weekend.

Friday, Jason had stopped on his way out to my house to get McDonalds and asked if I wanted anything. I said nope, no thanks! And not only did I not have any, I also ran friday evening, and stayed within my points.

Saturday we had a good morning, and a busy afternoon, which ended in dinner and a comedy club with some friends. Well dinner was at an AWESOME local Italian restaurant, where I managed to avoid the bread basket, cheesy cream sauces and desserts which were on the table. Instead I had half of my serving on Linguine marinara and a bit of the free tiramisu the host gave use for me finding an eyelash in my salad. But another day, spent within my points allowance.

Sunday was also good. I got up, and even though it was starting to rain, I headed out on my run, and got 5 miles in. The rain has picked up while I was out, and I managed to get pretty soaked, but believe it or not, I love running in the rain. The rest of the day was spent within my points allowance.

Then today happened and that damn candy bowl got to me again. But instead of focusing on that, I'm just gonna to say I had a great and OP weekend! And I'm going to try to remember tomorrow when that candy bowl is calling my name, just how crappy it made me physically feel today. My body does NOT enjoy processing that junk!

Anyways, tonight we have a meeting with the priest to do a "pre-marriage inventory" whatever that is,and on the way we are gonna stop at a stir fry place, where I know I can eat healthy. No running tonight, but will be back at it tomorrow, wednesday and thursday!

I hope everyone is having healthy and OP days, I'll be joining you back on the healthy side, starting now.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Back on Track Day #1

Day #1 Back on Track has so far been great. I can’t say that I haven’t been tempted by the candy bowl here at work, which has seemed to be the main contributor to be demise in the last year. And honestly, when I look back at the reasons that I just couldn’t leave the candy bowl alone, I can’t even come up with one. I’ve never had that much of a sweet tooth, in fact, prior to being on weight watchers the very first time, I could take or leave chocolate completely (I know, I know, I’m a rare one), rather I gained my weight by just plain old eating too much, and loving salty snacks like chips and dip, nachos and all the good stuff. Oh, and I loved cheese. If I recipe called for 1 cup of cheese, I was sure to AT LEAST double it. So chocolate was never a huge problem for me, but lately, it’s become one.
So today I’ve walked past the bowl like I do every other day, usually snagging something out of it, and then that leads to the downward spiral for the day, when pretty much I’m just hugging the candy bowl. Today it has these little nestle Easter eggs in it. They have Butterfinger, nestle crunch, milk chocolate and caramel, and quite honestly they’ve been calling my name. But I’ve been good, and I’ve been remembering, with me, it’s not just one. And that’s my problem lately. I always say “oh I will just have one”, and then it always always always leads to me not stopping, and ending up blowing way more then my points. So, today I’ve been telling myself that, you CAN DO THIS. You have before, and you WILL again!
So that’s my mantra, kinda like a train, I know I can, I know I can.
On that note, I had a good end of the day yesterday, I ate healthy, and I ran 3 miles. Even though the 3 miles were a serious pain in the butt. I drank a meal replacement or “protein shake” about an hour beforehand and it seriously made me sick, so today I switched to having that for breakfast and I’ll try a pear about an hour before I run. However I hadn’t eaten well all day, so It’s hard to tell if it was the protein shake that caused the stomach upset (and the run to be hard) or it was just the lack of nutrition for the day. But either way, we aren’t repeating that!
I’ve also decided, in order to take the emphasis off the number on the scale, and put it more on what I’m doing right, how I feel and how my clothes fit, I’m just going to weigh once a month. I weighed in on March 5th and was at 159lbs. I haven’t been great this month (but did start running again!) and my next weigh in will be a week from today, April 2nd. In ways I’m looking forward to it, other ways I’m not.
This weekend we don’t have much for plans. Tonight the FiancĂ© comes in from travelling for work, and I think we are just going to take it easy, so that should be a nice controlled night of food. Saturday we are going to try on Tuxes, and make sure that he likes the colors that I’ve picked out. Then we have dinner and a comedy club with another couple. Dinner is at a nice Italian restaurant in the area, and I’m just planning to stick to Marinara sauce and noodles and keep it to a smaller portion and I’ll be fine!
Anyways, that’s it for now, I’ll probably post menus for awhile, so look for that later.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Anyone still around?

Well I’m not even sure I’m even on anyone “radar” anymore, so I don’t even know that this new post will be found by anyone, let alone all the great friends I used to have in the blog world!

It looks like the last time I wrote on my blog was September 3rd, 2009. Kinda of crazy to believe something that was such a staple in my life has went 6 months without any updating, and even longer that that without a steady number of posts.

A lot, and I mean a lot has happened in my life in the last year and half. Needless to say, part of what has happened is that I’ve gained a lot of weight back, although probably only about another 4lbs from the last time I posted a weight which was about 7 months ago, so that’s not too bad.

However, I’ve tried and tried again to get back on the Weight Watchers boat, and it just seems like I can’t do it. I was never one to say I couldn’t do something before. But I’ve just struggled and struggled. I’ve had the mentality of “oh I’ll just start tomorrow” Well putting it off til tomorrow has now left me with 20 pounds to lose again. Putting it off meant letting all the hard work that went into my health and fitness fall to the way-side. And when I sit here and write, I’m actually disgusted that I let it come to this point. I honestly “feel” unhealthy again, even though I’m really just at the very high end of my healthy weight range, this IS NOT where I’m comfortable at.

Now don’t get me wrong, this stuff may have fallen to the way-side. But my life has been awesome for the last 18 months. I have a guy in my life, and I got engaged in November of 2009. We are getting married in September of this year, and I can’t wait. I’m getting AN awesome 3 year old son in the deal, and I couldn’t be happier.

BUT, at the same time, as happy as I am, my eating being out of control, and the weight coming back seems to weigh on me pretty heavy. I know I’m not healthy, and I know that I can be so much better of a person for myself, for my DF, and for my DS. It’s not something I THINK I should do, its something I KNOW I need to do.

That being said, I’ve been trying, I am running again, and It’s finally getting out of the stage where I have to push myself to go, I’m getting back to the point where I’m addicted to it. And that makes it a lot easier to keep up on when I’m not dreading the next run.

So, the next in line to do is to get my eating back on track. I’ve blown today out of the water, but I’m going to a sensible and healthy dinner, and stay on track for the rest of the day and start a fresh week tomorrow.

My first weight goal is to be under 160lbs. I think my ultimate goal will to be where I once was. But I would be ecstatic to be under the 150lb part for my wedding.

Anyways. That is it for me now. My goal is also to post 5 times a week, and post menus.

Have a good one if there is anyone left out there!