Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Day #5

Today has been a success!

I've learned, it seems for some reason when I eat more carbs in the morning, I seem to have more hunger and cravings, if I mainly have protein in the morning, until lunch, I seem to do better. Whether or not this is just a mental thing, or actually something that helps, I don't know, but I'll go with it for now.

Today I've stayed OP and within my points so far, and I haven't let the candy bowl here at work call to me, which is GREAT! we'll see how the rest of the day goes, but it's looking to me like Day 5 will be great.

We had pre-martial stuff last night, and that went well. We had to take some test, which apparently helps identify areas where we disagree so that we have to talk about them with a therapist and work them out. I'm really impartial, but if they think it will help us , I say go for it.

I didn't run last night, but I plan to tonight, plan to run 4 miles I think. It's gorgeous here today, It is like 55 and sunny with hardly any wind, so I'm going to take advantage of it, and get outside for my second longest run this week.

This weekend is suppose be in the 70s, in Michigan nonetheless! I don't know why mother nature is playing tricks on us, but I'll take what I can get!

Other exciting new, I put a deposit on my wedding dress today! Woo Hoo! They had one I tried on that actually fit, so I went ahead and bought it off the rack, I got $100 off for doing so. So now I just have to lose a few of these pounds so I look even better in it :)

Anyways, that's it for today, I hope everyone is having a healthy, Happy and OP day!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Day # 4

Well, Day #4 didn't go so well, but instead of dwelling on it, and letting it get to me, I'm going to tell you exactly how awesome I was all weekend.

Friday, Jason had stopped on his way out to my house to get McDonalds and asked if I wanted anything. I said nope, no thanks! And not only did I not have any, I also ran friday evening, and stayed within my points.

Saturday we had a good morning, and a busy afternoon, which ended in dinner and a comedy club with some friends. Well dinner was at an AWESOME local Italian restaurant, where I managed to avoid the bread basket, cheesy cream sauces and desserts which were on the table. Instead I had half of my serving on Linguine marinara and a bit of the free tiramisu the host gave use for me finding an eyelash in my salad. But another day, spent within my points allowance.

Sunday was also good. I got up, and even though it was starting to rain, I headed out on my run, and got 5 miles in. The rain has picked up while I was out, and I managed to get pretty soaked, but believe it or not, I love running in the rain. The rest of the day was spent within my points allowance.

Then today happened and that damn candy bowl got to me again. But instead of focusing on that, I'm just gonna to say I had a great and OP weekend! And I'm going to try to remember tomorrow when that candy bowl is calling my name, just how crappy it made me physically feel today. My body does NOT enjoy processing that junk!

Anyways, tonight we have a meeting with the priest to do a "pre-marriage inventory" whatever that is,and on the way we are gonna stop at a stir fry place, where I know I can eat healthy. No running tonight, but will be back at it tomorrow, wednesday and thursday!

I hope everyone is having healthy and OP days, I'll be joining you back on the healthy side, starting now.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Back on Track Day #1

Day #1 Back on Track has so far been great. I can’t say that I haven’t been tempted by the candy bowl here at work, which has seemed to be the main contributor to be demise in the last year. And honestly, when I look back at the reasons that I just couldn’t leave the candy bowl alone, I can’t even come up with one. I’ve never had that much of a sweet tooth, in fact, prior to being on weight watchers the very first time, I could take or leave chocolate completely (I know, I know, I’m a rare one), rather I gained my weight by just plain old eating too much, and loving salty snacks like chips and dip, nachos and all the good stuff. Oh, and I loved cheese. If I recipe called for 1 cup of cheese, I was sure to AT LEAST double it. So chocolate was never a huge problem for me, but lately, it’s become one.
So today I’ve walked past the bowl like I do every other day, usually snagging something out of it, and then that leads to the downward spiral for the day, when pretty much I’m just hugging the candy bowl. Today it has these little nestle Easter eggs in it. They have Butterfinger, nestle crunch, milk chocolate and caramel, and quite honestly they’ve been calling my name. But I’ve been good, and I’ve been remembering, with me, it’s not just one. And that’s my problem lately. I always say “oh I will just have one”, and then it always always always leads to me not stopping, and ending up blowing way more then my points. So, today I’ve been telling myself that, you CAN DO THIS. You have before, and you WILL again!
So that’s my mantra, kinda like a train, I know I can, I know I can.
On that note, I had a good end of the day yesterday, I ate healthy, and I ran 3 miles. Even though the 3 miles were a serious pain in the butt. I drank a meal replacement or “protein shake” about an hour beforehand and it seriously made me sick, so today I switched to having that for breakfast and I’ll try a pear about an hour before I run. However I hadn’t eaten well all day, so It’s hard to tell if it was the protein shake that caused the stomach upset (and the run to be hard) or it was just the lack of nutrition for the day. But either way, we aren’t repeating that!
I’ve also decided, in order to take the emphasis off the number on the scale, and put it more on what I’m doing right, how I feel and how my clothes fit, I’m just going to weigh once a month. I weighed in on March 5th and was at 159lbs. I haven’t been great this month (but did start running again!) and my next weigh in will be a week from today, April 2nd. In ways I’m looking forward to it, other ways I’m not.
This weekend we don’t have much for plans. Tonight the FiancĂ© comes in from travelling for work, and I think we are just going to take it easy, so that should be a nice controlled night of food. Saturday we are going to try on Tuxes, and make sure that he likes the colors that I’ve picked out. Then we have dinner and a comedy club with another couple. Dinner is at a nice Italian restaurant in the area, and I’m just planning to stick to Marinara sauce and noodles and keep it to a smaller portion and I’ll be fine!
Anyways, that’s it for now, I’ll probably post menus for awhile, so look for that later.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Anyone still around?

Well I’m not even sure I’m even on anyone “radar” anymore, so I don’t even know that this new post will be found by anyone, let alone all the great friends I used to have in the blog world!

It looks like the last time I wrote on my blog was September 3rd, 2009. Kinda of crazy to believe something that was such a staple in my life has went 6 months without any updating, and even longer that that without a steady number of posts.

A lot, and I mean a lot has happened in my life in the last year and half. Needless to say, part of what has happened is that I’ve gained a lot of weight back, although probably only about another 4lbs from the last time I posted a weight which was about 7 months ago, so that’s not too bad.

However, I’ve tried and tried again to get back on the Weight Watchers boat, and it just seems like I can’t do it. I was never one to say I couldn’t do something before. But I’ve just struggled and struggled. I’ve had the mentality of “oh I’ll just start tomorrow” Well putting it off til tomorrow has now left me with 20 pounds to lose again. Putting it off meant letting all the hard work that went into my health and fitness fall to the way-side. And when I sit here and write, I’m actually disgusted that I let it come to this point. I honestly “feel” unhealthy again, even though I’m really just at the very high end of my healthy weight range, this IS NOT where I’m comfortable at.

Now don’t get me wrong, this stuff may have fallen to the way-side. But my life has been awesome for the last 18 months. I have a guy in my life, and I got engaged in November of 2009. We are getting married in September of this year, and I can’t wait. I’m getting AN awesome 3 year old son in the deal, and I couldn’t be happier.

BUT, at the same time, as happy as I am, my eating being out of control, and the weight coming back seems to weigh on me pretty heavy. I know I’m not healthy, and I know that I can be so much better of a person for myself, for my DF, and for my DS. It’s not something I THINK I should do, its something I KNOW I need to do.

That being said, I’ve been trying, I am running again, and It’s finally getting out of the stage where I have to push myself to go, I’m getting back to the point where I’m addicted to it. And that makes it a lot easier to keep up on when I’m not dreading the next run.

So, the next in line to do is to get my eating back on track. I’ve blown today out of the water, but I’m going to a sensible and healthy dinner, and stay on track for the rest of the day and start a fresh week tomorrow.

My first weight goal is to be under 160lbs. I think my ultimate goal will to be where I once was. But I would be ecstatic to be under the 150lb part for my wedding.

Anyways. That is it for me now. My goal is also to post 5 times a week, and post menus.

Have a good one if there is anyone left out there!