It looks like the last time I wrote on my blog was September 3rd, 2009. Kinda of crazy to believe something that was such a staple in my life has went 6 months without any updating, and even longer that that without a steady number of posts.
A lot, and I mean a lot has happened in my life in the last year and half. Needless to say, part of what has happened is that I’ve gained a lot of weight back, although probably only about another 4lbs from the last time I posted a weight which was about 7 months ago, so that’s not too bad.
However, I’ve tried and tried again to get back on the Weight Watchers boat, and it just seems like I can’t do it. I was never one to say I couldn’t do something before. But I’ve just struggled and struggled. I’ve had the mentality of “oh I’ll just start tomorrow” Well putting it off til tomorrow has now left me with 20 pounds to lose again. Putting it off meant letting all the hard work that went into my health and fitness fall to the way-side. And when I sit here and write, I’m actually disgusted that I let it come to this point. I honestly “feel” unhealthy again, even though I’m really just at the very high end of my healthy weight range, this IS NOT where I’m comfortable at.
Now don’t get me wrong, this stuff may have fallen to the way-side. But my life has been awesome for the last 18 months. I have a guy in my life, and I got engaged in November of 2009. We are getting married in September of this year, and I can’t wait. I’m getting AN awesome 3 year old son in the deal, and I couldn’t be happier.
BUT, at the same time, as happy as I am, my eating being out of control, and the weight coming back seems to weigh on me pretty heavy. I know I’m not healthy, and I know that I can be so much better of a person for myself, for my DF, and for my DS. It’s not something I THINK I should do, its something I KNOW I need to do.
That being said, I’ve been trying, I am running again, and It’s finally getting out of the stage where I have to push myself to go, I’m getting back to the point where I’m addicted to it. And that makes it a lot easier to keep up on when I’m not dreading the next run.
So, the next in line to do is to get my eating back on track. I’ve blown today out of the water, but I’m going to a sensible and healthy dinner, and stay on track for the rest of the day and start a fresh week tomorrow.
My first weight goal is to be under 160lbs. I think my ultimate goal will to be where I once was. But I would be ecstatic to be under the 150lb part for my wedding.
Anyways. That is it for me now. My goal is also to post 5 times a week, and post menus.
Have a good one if there is anyone left out there!