Friday, February 13, 2009

"Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them; but do not let them
master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight."
-- Helen Keller

Ok, So I updated my sidebar with my weigh in this morning, and my goals.

At first, I was so embarrassed of the weight I weighed in at this morning, I wasn't going to post it, but then I thought about it, and I know that no one here judges, and I know we are all in the same boat, so there it is. I'm 7.5lbs over my weight watchers goal, and 10.4lbs over my personal goal. It's hard to take, but I know there is no one to blame but myself.

I can look at the reasons this has happened. One, the holidays, yah, they hit, and I ate too much, and I got too comfortable eating that way, and just continued on that path for the first month of the new year, and it showed. I can't eat like that and expect to maintain. Everytime I was devouring a snickers bar I knew this, but that certainly didn't make me stop eating it. I wish it did!

Second, the boyfriend eats bad, and I'm constantly exposed to junk. Once again not a good reason, but it's there, and I have to learn I just can't eat it, whether it's there or not. This week I'm heading to his house armed with all kinds of good food, and my normal snacks, plus two healthy dinners to make us!

Third, I've been fighting being sick since around Thanksgiving, and it's affected my running. It was easy to maintain (and eat a little more), when I was running as much as I was, but I continued to eat like I was running, and stopped running. So therefore I gained weight. I'm getting back into running very slowly, as my immune system isn't quite up to par yet, but I'll get there.

So, I know today's weigh in was a little inflated, TOM and a few other "issues", including feeling massively bloated, but it is what it is, and that's my starting weight. My goal this time around is 140. I picked 138 earlier, and in the same line I said I was crazy happy when I was 140, I picked 138 as a goal. Why would I do that? No friggin idea, perhaps its me always trying to "one up" myself. So 140 it is. I have 12.4lbs to lose.

So whats my goals for this week:

1. Stay OP on WW's. Get in your 8 GHG's, Have 7 solid good days OP. Stay within your points, eat a few activity points, but stay away from flexies

2. Run. Run 4 times this wek.

3. Do three days each of pushup and situp challenges.

4. Blog everyday!

Ok, Ok, so there are the goals, set out before you! I also set a goal to lose 2.4lbs this month, think it's totally doable with 2 weeks left!

Have a great weekend guys, I know I'm going to!


JODI said...

there's no reason to be embarrassed and like you said - we've all been there or are there right now... (1) it's tough accepting that you've gained weight and (2) it's even tougher to share with the world because there's always the fear of looking like a failure (speaking in general, not to you specifically)... you've always had a great attitude and stick to your goals, so reaching the end result with be easy... :)

Kathy said...

Good for you getting a plan in place and doing what needs to be done. Maintaining is the hardest phase of weight loss and requires constant vigilance. Believe me, you are not alone fighting this battle!

Andrew is getting fit said...

No need to be embarrased. It's just weight. :)

I think it's great you are holding yourself accountable and getting back on track.

Law student said...

I felt the same way about gaining weight and getting back OP. But embarrassment and pride aside, I'm back! Good luck to you and you know you can do it! :)

Fatinah said...

I think the thing that would be embarrassing would be not getting back on program.
The point you made about having been sick for a long time hit the nail on the head. I bet your body, to some degree, has been busy trying to heal.