Thursday, August 28, 2008

"The most absurd and reckless aspirations have sometimes led to
extraordinary success."
-- Vauvenargues

Well I won't talk much about what I wrote yesterday other than this;

- Thank you for all your kind comments. They truly help more than you know.
- I never received an email back from him, I don't know that I expected to.
- I renamed him, he doesn't have a real name, his name will from now on only be lying cheating man whore. Fits him better.
- It's in the past, it's done and over. I'm moving on.


That being said. I'm putting on a happy face today. Do I feel better? A little. But I'm trying!

I did have a decent end to yesterday though. I had done a lot of crying earlier in the day, but was able to avoid it most of the afternoon. When I got off work, I pretty much felt like crap. I had only slept a couple hours the night before, and I cried a lot, so my sinuses were all screwy.

BUT! This is where I surprised myself. I actually went out for a run. I didn't feel like it, I had 4 miles on the schedule, but I promised myself just to get out the door, and if it was bad, just turn around. I also promised myself I could switch my 3 miles from tonight to yesterday if I wanted to only do 3. But I did the whole 4. Granted it was slower than normal, but it was a good run, and when I got home, I felt much better. When I got home I made myself a yummy dinner (pork chop and barley bake, yum!), watched some tv, had a beer and hit the sack.

I'm glad to say the last couple days my eating has been fine. Probably a little on the light side, but after the brownie incident on monday, I probably could use a couple days of light anyways. But I've been eating, and at a time like this, that's an accomplishment, as I have to force myself to eat.

Tonight I think I'm going to stop and get some sweet corn on the way home, and have that with a tuna meal that I have planned for tonight, it should be most yummy. And this will be after I get my last 3 miles in for the week. Which will make my total mileage for the week 15 miles...which was what I planned.

Other than that, nothing too new and exciting around here, but once again guys, thank you. You mean the world to me.

5 comments:

Kathy said...

Good for you!

CaRoLyN said...

Glad you feel a little better about the whole situation.

Congrats on the run, that is major progress. You could have totally used your tears as a reaosn not to go. Progress Kate, major progress!

noelle said...

So glad you did something to make yourself feel better that wasn't food related.

It is a new day.

Erica said...

Kate,
I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that pain. I like the new name you gave him, fits him well. I can't believe he would do that to you. Like you said that was in the past and now look toward the future and your new man. I tend to eat more when I am upset and I try to think of other ways to get out my anger. I think the run was good for you.

Chellie has Issues said...

I'm glad that:
A) You're feeling a bit better
B) You renamed him very appropriately
C) You haven't buried yourself in a trough of chocolate brownies
D) You ran even when you didn't feel like it!

I hope Tech has been understanding through this. Don't push him out, he seems like a good one.