Thursday, August 28, 2008

"The most absurd and reckless aspirations have sometimes led to
extraordinary success."
-- Vauvenargues

Well I won't talk much about what I wrote yesterday other than this;

- Thank you for all your kind comments. They truly help more than you know.
- I never received an email back from him, I don't know that I expected to.
- I renamed him, he doesn't have a real name, his name will from now on only be lying cheating man whore. Fits him better.
- It's in the past, it's done and over. I'm moving on.

That being said. I'm putting on a happy face today. Do I feel better? A little. But I'm trying!

I did have a decent end to yesterday though. I had done a lot of crying earlier in the day, but was able to avoid it most of the afternoon. When I got off work, I pretty much felt like crap. I had only slept a couple hours the night before, and I cried a lot, so my sinuses were all screwy.

BUT! This is where I surprised myself. I actually went out for a run. I didn't feel like it, I had 4 miles on the schedule, but I promised myself just to get out the door, and if it was bad, just turn around. I also promised myself I could switch my 3 miles from tonight to yesterday if I wanted to only do 3. But I did the whole 4. Granted it was slower than normal, but it was a good run, and when I got home, I felt much better. When I got home I made myself a yummy dinner (pork chop and barley bake, yum!), watched some tv, had a beer and hit the sack.

I'm glad to say the last couple days my eating has been fine. Probably a little on the light side, but after the brownie incident on monday, I probably could use a couple days of light anyways. But I've been eating, and at a time like this, that's an accomplishment, as I have to force myself to eat.

Tonight I think I'm going to stop and get some sweet corn on the way home, and have that with a tuna meal that I have planned for tonight, it should be most yummy. And this will be after I get my last 3 miles in for the week. Which will make my total mileage for the week 15 miles...which was what I planned.

Other than that, nothing too new and exciting around here, but once again guys, thank you. You mean the world to me.


Kathy said...

Good for you!

CaRoLyN said...

Glad you feel a little better about the whole situation.

Congrats on the run, that is major progress. You could have totally used your tears as a reaosn not to go. Progress Kate, major progress!

noelle said...

So glad you did something to make yourself feel better that wasn't food related.

It is a new day.

Erica said...

I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that pain. I like the new name you gave him, fits him well. I can't believe he would do that to you. Like you said that was in the past and now look toward the future and your new man. I tend to eat more when I am upset and I try to think of other ways to get out my anger. I think the run was good for you.

Chellie has Issues said...

I'm glad that:
A) You're feeling a bit better
B) You renamed him very appropriately
C) You haven't buried yourself in a trough of chocolate brownies
D) You ran even when you didn't feel like it!

I hope Tech has been understanding through this. Don't push him out, he seems like a good one.