Ok, so I've been doing some soul searching here at work today, probably because it's slow, and partially because I feel like crap and haven't eaten anything of nutritious value today, yes, that's right, I've had a steady diet of cookies. While this is an exceptionally tasty diet, I've learned, one, it makes me feel like crap, including a headache, and just overall yucky feeling. The bad thing is, this has been the story of my life for much to long. My body is in serious serious need of good food.

My days always start out with great intentions, a healthy breakfast, nutritious lunch and snacks planned for the day, and a good menu for the evening, but for some reason, my usually exceptional willpower of turning down the goodies that are brought in hasn't been there, and I start with one, and it's a downhill spiral.

So it stops right now. RIGHT NOW. I know that the holidays are coming up, and I can't expect to track on those days, I can try to eat sensibly, and enjoy small portions.

So here we have it, in the next 10 days (December 23rd to January 1st) I plan to track 8 of those days. I am going to track using 21 points a day, and using weight watchers online.

The house has been, and will remain cleared of junk food, I've been great at home, and at the boyfriends really, it's just the crap at work that's killing me, I have no willpower.

Also, I haven't been running, first I was sick, and now it's like in the subzeros outside with windchill, I can't run in that, even as tough as I've been running through about all conditions. A goal is to get back to running as soon as the weather permits.

Also, I've made a commitment to doing something kind of crazy come the first of the year. As I've always been about overall health, and nutrition, and making my body feel better, I've committed to doing a "Master Cleanse" come January 2nd. Has anyone else tried this? I hear it's not an easy thing to do, but it intrigues me, and from the hundreds of reviews I've read, you feel great, and gain a new relationship with food (learn to appreciate it more). Now generally, they say anywhere from 10 to 40 days on it safe, I'm shooting for between 5 and 10 days for my first shot. Does anyone have any experience with this, tried a cleanse? Known anyone who has?

Alright, well there is my game plan for the next couple weeks. I'm going to try to stick to primarily core foods, and try to track as many day as humanly possible for the next 10 days, and then I will be moving onto hopefully 10 days of a detox and then onto some more weight watchers and tracking!

So there be it! I will be posting everyday, the good, the bad, the ugly!

Ok so getting back on track with tracking hasn't been going so well, my days have been a disaster...

Seriously, I feel gross, I'm overeating, yet I can't get control of it, and I have no idea why...I so hate when I feel like this...

"The world of achievement has always belonged to the optimist."
-- J. Harold Wilkins

Hey everyone! I hope the holidays are being good to everyone so far! As I said in my post last week, I'm totally ready for it to be over! Although I did finally get my tree up on Monday night, so I'm feeling a bit more festive!

So I've decided I am going to go back to posting my menu's for you all to look at! I know, I know, your on the edge of your seat, and you absolutely cannot wait!

I've just felt like I've been totally off track lately, luckily the scale isn't showing much of a gain right now (and it is the holidays), but I don't know how long I'm gonna get away with it without a huge gain, so time to get back on track, start posting what I'm eating at least until I feel I've gotten control back, and hopefully have gotten through the holidays. But for me Christmas and Christmas Eve and New Years and New Years Eve are off limits for tracking lol!

I'm finally getting to feeling better, but I still haven't been able to run, but I'm not pushing it, because I know that I will get even sicker, and that's not a good thing!

Anyways, I will update with a menu post later, wish me luck with my first tracking day!

" You see things and say, 'Why?", but I dream things and say, 'Why not?"
~George Bernard Shaw

Wow, mark it on the calender, twice in one week, it's hard to believe.

Just a short little update. I was doing real well this week, sticking to plan, running and all that good stuff, and then Wednesday I came down with being real sick (somewhere to the tune of about 103* fever), so yesterday I was laid up all day, and today, while I'm at work and I feel a bit better, I'm still fighting it. And I'll admit, I'm not the best about staying on plan when I'm sick. Yesterday the only thing that tasted good was sherbet on my sore throat or hostess 100 calorie packs (who knows why!). But I figure first priority should be getting better, then we'll be back to the grind of weight watchers.

Anyone else ready for the holiday season to be over with? I love the holidays, and I love the time spent with family, but I'm really ready for all the treats to disappear, and for my normal schedule to return.

Even being sick this week I managed to get in 12 miles...not too bad, this winter my goal has been 15-20 miles a week, so 12 isn't bad being my week was cut short.

Speaking of Hostess 100-calorie packs, I'm a little late on these I'm sure, but they have strawberry ones now! They are great, picked some up when I was shopping last night, yum! A good treat once in awhile!

Nothing terribly exciting planned for the weekend here, probably just recovering a bit from this cold so I can get back to normal running and eating schedule!

Oh and I did weigh in this morning at 142.2lbs, so still at maintenance weight, I'm happy with that!

Alright until next time, take care everyone. Happy Holidays!

"Mental attitude is more important than mental capacity."
~Walter Dill Scott

Well geez, It's been forever, do you guys even remember me? That is the few readers that I even have left? I'm so sorry that life has gotten the best of me the last couple months, and I have been less than attentive to my blog.

First of all, Happy Holidays to everyone. I hope everyone had wonderful Thanksgivings and are looking forward to, and getting ready for the Christmas Holiday.

This is one of my favorite times of year, I love spending time with the family, baking and more importantly, eating all the yummy food that comes around with Christmas time!

I've been doing ok sticking to plan, I have good days, and I have bad days, but more importantly, the weight in doing ok. I was not home this Sunday for my official weigh in, but I checked the scale last night to "check in" on myself, and I'm showing to still be right in the area of 142. It's hard to tell exactly, since I'm always up a little during the day. I'm taking it as I'm doing ok though, and even if I was actually up a little bit, it is the holidays.

I'm actually trying to following weight watchers again during the holidays. That way on the days I'm not busy with social events, ect that comes with Christmas time, I'm doing very well, it makes the days that aren't so hot have less of an impact on my weight. Although I have to admit I was a little put off by the changes they made with the new momentum plan, but I'm getting used to it.

As far as personal life is going, everything is going decent. Mom, Dad and all my brothers are all doing well. And the guy that I've been seeing and I are doing well.

Running is still going good. I am now on my 22nd week of running, and I have to admit I love it. I go through cycles it seems, where I'll love it, and then I'll despise going out and running. The weeks where I love it, I get out as much as I can, and the weeks where I loath it, I just try to get out once or twice. It all works out, and I'm still doing it on a regular basis, which in my eyes is great. I'm also still running outside, even though it's cold. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, and you should see the looks I get when I'm out running at its 20* and snowing out, but I just love it. That's one of the great things about Michigan, you'll never get bored with the weather! On the other hand, it does get awful expensive making sure you have all the right clothes to go fight the weather, ha ha.

Eating as a whole has been good. I'm learning maintenance isn't about "being good" all the time. It's about enjoying Pizza and Broiled Chicken on the weekend, and then cutting back during the week to make up for it. It's about having the piece of cheesecake at dinner, but only eating half. And don't get me wrong, there are still plenty of times I still want to (and have) broke down and eaten for comfort, but I suppose you can't kill all your old habits right off the bat.

Anyways, that's the update for now, I'm off to catch up on some of your blogs since I've been such a bad blog friend! Hope all is well with everyone!