So I've decided it's definitely going to be a good day. Today is the day I get my groove back.
That's all for now, actual post to follow.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
It's all a mindset
"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't--you're right."
Henry Ford
Well I promised I would be back today, and I am! But unfortunately I don't have good news to report.
I tried my old, don't eat til I get home strategy and I failed miserably. When I first started Weight Watchers in 2007 I had TERRIBLE eating habits, I wouldn't eat all day and then I would come home from work and eat junk, and too much of it. So when I started Weight Watchers, it was typical for my body to not want to eat til I got home from work, so it worked for me.
However, this time is different, When I developed good eating habits, I started to eat breakfast and feed my body throughout the day. So When I tried to not eat anything throughout the day, my body rebelled and I got ravenously hungry. Unfortunately I didn't plan for that, and had nothing to eat at work (how freaking stupid looking back now), and I ate all the wrong stuff. I had candy, some pop tarts, other odds and ends that just weren't good. And it was my fault and my fault alone, I should have been prepared.
Well I decided when I got home that I would get back on track and eat a sensible dinner, and that is what I did. I'm forewarning you, I do eat lots of weird combinations of food. I eat them more as courses, not together, so don't think I am eating my corn with my eggs and toast.
So tonight I came home, i had two ears of sweet corn (fresh picked that I got on my way home), I had two eggs with two slices of toast and then as a snack afterwards I finished some Pirates Booty I had left (which I would think to be about 1 serving). So I had a very yummy, and filling dinner. And that will be it for the evening.
We will just call it an early start to a good day tomorrow :)
I've also decided for whatever reason I cannot, as hard as I try wrap my head around the new WW's plan. I've tried, and tried, and for some reason I can't do it. I'm not good with change, and I loved the old plan, so you know what? I'm going to use the old plan. I found a WW Diary application for my droid, and I can keep track using the old points program on that, and that's what I plan to do.
My Weigh In this last week (on Sunday) I was 167.6, and I do believe that was a little high due to a TOM gain. This week I will not weigh, so my next weigh in will be on August 21st, which is 11 days away.
My goal between now and then is pretty simple. Stay on Plan. Thats it.
Anyways, I will write more tomorrow.
Henry Ford
Well I promised I would be back today, and I am! But unfortunately I don't have good news to report.
I tried my old, don't eat til I get home strategy and I failed miserably. When I first started Weight Watchers in 2007 I had TERRIBLE eating habits, I wouldn't eat all day and then I would come home from work and eat junk, and too much of it. So when I started Weight Watchers, it was typical for my body to not want to eat til I got home from work, so it worked for me.
However, this time is different, When I developed good eating habits, I started to eat breakfast and feed my body throughout the day. So When I tried to not eat anything throughout the day, my body rebelled and I got ravenously hungry. Unfortunately I didn't plan for that, and had nothing to eat at work (how freaking stupid looking back now), and I ate all the wrong stuff. I had candy, some pop tarts, other odds and ends that just weren't good. And it was my fault and my fault alone, I should have been prepared.
Well I decided when I got home that I would get back on track and eat a sensible dinner, and that is what I did. I'm forewarning you, I do eat lots of weird combinations of food. I eat them more as courses, not together, so don't think I am eating my corn with my eggs and toast.
So tonight I came home, i had two ears of sweet corn (fresh picked that I got on my way home), I had two eggs with two slices of toast and then as a snack afterwards I finished some Pirates Booty I had left (which I would think to be about 1 serving). So I had a very yummy, and filling dinner. And that will be it for the evening.
We will just call it an early start to a good day tomorrow :)
I've also decided for whatever reason I cannot, as hard as I try wrap my head around the new WW's plan. I've tried, and tried, and for some reason I can't do it. I'm not good with change, and I loved the old plan, so you know what? I'm going to use the old plan. I found a WW Diary application for my droid, and I can keep track using the old points program on that, and that's what I plan to do.
My Weigh In this last week (on Sunday) I was 167.6, and I do believe that was a little high due to a TOM gain. This week I will not weigh, so my next weigh in will be on August 21st, which is 11 days away.
My goal between now and then is pretty simple. Stay on Plan. Thats it.
Anyways, I will write more tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
I don't even know where to begin...
Well, I've spent alot of time avoid the facts. And the facts are I'm fat. In fact, I probably weigh more now then I did when I first started Weight Watchers the first time back in 2007.
I've been avoiding this blog for almost a year. And I don't really know why. Well, actually sitting here thinking about it, I do know why, I'm ashamed of what I've done to myself, I'm terribly unhappy with my weight and my activity level. I probably don't have any readers from my journey before, but I guess I was afraid to come back here and face the people who came to know me as this fit and healthy person who was so into cooking, running and healthy eating. I not only let myself down, I let the people who looked up to me and found inspiration in my story down.
As I sit here tonight, I feel gross. I just spent the day eating junk. I ate too much chocolate today (along with my standard healthier fare) and then topped it off with chicken tenders and french fries at applebees for dinner. When I know darn well Applebees has plenty of healthy and sensible weight watchers meals I could have chosen from, but I didn't.
It all starts with the bad choices. And I make them every single day, multiple times a day. I'm the one who chooses to put the first piece of chocolate in my mouth knowing darn well that that will lead to an uncontrollable spiral downhill where that one piece of chocolate will turn into 24 pieces, or the 2 bites of cake will turn into a 1/4 of the cake, really you get the point, once I touch a trigger food its done.
Its not only the fact that I gained weight that bothers me, it's the fact that I no longer feel sexy (even though my DH tells me I am ALL the time), and since I don't feel sexy, well it doesn't make me exactly want to take my clothes off. You get the drift.
Also, I find myself cranky, tired and unmotivated to do much. I also am finding myself putting things off until I "lose some weight", and I don't want life to pass me by. I don't want my stepson to know me as a fat, out of shape stepmom who never did anything fun with him.
I feel like alot of my bad eating habits come out of anxiety. I pace alot at work, and while I pace, I pace past the candy dish at work, and that's how I end up getting started on one piece and it leads to more.
I don't know why I get the anxiety, maybe it's more boredom then anxiety. But regardless, I need to change that habit. If I need to pace or I am bored, I need to pace elsewhere where there isn't a candy bowl.
Also, while I know breakfast is important, when I first began Weight Watchers back in 07, I spent most of the day just lightly snacking and drinking water and saved a majority of my points for at home in the evening. This worked for me, because I am generally a person who is more hungry throughout the day when I eat in the morning.
While I know it's not a generally acceptable "healthy eating practice" I am going to go back to having basically coffee and water in the morning, and introducing a few little things in the early afternoon, and I will eat a majority of my points in the evening. This worked for me at first, then I gradually started to learn to better split my points up throughout the day and eating breakfast.
So I think that is mainly my goals for the next two weeks. I only plan to weigh myself once a month (maybe sometimes during the weeks as a spot check). I would like to lose 25lbs, but I will shoot for 5lbs at a time.
For the next two weeks, I will eat most of my points in the evening. I will learn to pace elsewhere besides past the candy bowl. I will avoid trigger foods.
Tomorrow I will update all the stats on the sidebar and the ticker to reflect my current journey.
If there is anyone out there that still reads this thank you for reading this incredibly raw and long post.
I've been avoiding this blog for almost a year. And I don't really know why. Well, actually sitting here thinking about it, I do know why, I'm ashamed of what I've done to myself, I'm terribly unhappy with my weight and my activity level. I probably don't have any readers from my journey before, but I guess I was afraid to come back here and face the people who came to know me as this fit and healthy person who was so into cooking, running and healthy eating. I not only let myself down, I let the people who looked up to me and found inspiration in my story down.
As I sit here tonight, I feel gross. I just spent the day eating junk. I ate too much chocolate today (along with my standard healthier fare) and then topped it off with chicken tenders and french fries at applebees for dinner. When I know darn well Applebees has plenty of healthy and sensible weight watchers meals I could have chosen from, but I didn't.
It all starts with the bad choices. And I make them every single day, multiple times a day. I'm the one who chooses to put the first piece of chocolate in my mouth knowing darn well that that will lead to an uncontrollable spiral downhill where that one piece of chocolate will turn into 24 pieces, or the 2 bites of cake will turn into a 1/4 of the cake, really you get the point, once I touch a trigger food its done.
Its not only the fact that I gained weight that bothers me, it's the fact that I no longer feel sexy (even though my DH tells me I am ALL the time), and since I don't feel sexy, well it doesn't make me exactly want to take my clothes off. You get the drift.
Also, I find myself cranky, tired and unmotivated to do much. I also am finding myself putting things off until I "lose some weight", and I don't want life to pass me by. I don't want my stepson to know me as a fat, out of shape stepmom who never did anything fun with him.
I feel like alot of my bad eating habits come out of anxiety. I pace alot at work, and while I pace, I pace past the candy dish at work, and that's how I end up getting started on one piece and it leads to more.
I don't know why I get the anxiety, maybe it's more boredom then anxiety. But regardless, I need to change that habit. If I need to pace or I am bored, I need to pace elsewhere where there isn't a candy bowl.
Also, while I know breakfast is important, when I first began Weight Watchers back in 07, I spent most of the day just lightly snacking and drinking water and saved a majority of my points for at home in the evening. This worked for me, because I am generally a person who is more hungry throughout the day when I eat in the morning.
While I know it's not a generally acceptable "healthy eating practice" I am going to go back to having basically coffee and water in the morning, and introducing a few little things in the early afternoon, and I will eat a majority of my points in the evening. This worked for me at first, then I gradually started to learn to better split my points up throughout the day and eating breakfast.
So I think that is mainly my goals for the next two weeks. I only plan to weigh myself once a month (maybe sometimes during the weeks as a spot check). I would like to lose 25lbs, but I will shoot for 5lbs at a time.
For the next two weeks, I will eat most of my points in the evening. I will learn to pace elsewhere besides past the candy bowl. I will avoid trigger foods.
Tomorrow I will update all the stats on the sidebar and the ticker to reflect my current journey.
If there is anyone out there that still reads this thank you for reading this incredibly raw and long post.
Monday, December 6, 2010
The Weekend!
I hope everyone had a good weekend. I know we did. Although the weekends never quite seem to be long enough.
This weekend was good, especially eating wise. I did great and stayed OP all weekend, I’ve been such a good little WW’r! And to make it better, I’m learning to stick to the new plan! I’m loving that fruit (and veggies) are free, even if it did mean that points of my other favorites went up.
DH is also doing very very well staying OP. About the only time he complains is on Sundays when we go out to eat with family and everything is so many points, and he can’t get what he normally eats. But this first week back OP from his Thanksgiving Eating (and leftovers), he lost almost 7 pounds, I’m sure some of which was water weight from eating so bad. But still, way to go DH. He only has about 10 more pounds until he gets where he would like to be. I hope it takes him a month or two at least, because with him, it’s not so much about the Weight Loss as I’m trying to teach him to make smarter choices, and portion control.
DH was never one of those guys that had a weight problem (and really, even today, he is only about 10lbs over weight). In fact, when DH and I met in 2004, he was about 60lbs lighter than he is today. He HAD a hyperactive thyroid, and he could literally eat ANYTHING he wanted and not gain an ounce (hence the beginning to my weight issue!). Well overtime, his hyperactive thyroid has become normal, and he no longer can eat anything, and unfortunately his eating style didn’t change, hence the 60lbs of gained weight in 6 years.
So really for him, this isn’t about losing the weight, although I do think it will help lower his cholesterol, give him more energy and just in general make him feel better. It’s more about learning healthy eating habits and maintaining a healthy weight. It’s easy to let your weight get out of control before you know it, and I didn’t want to see that happen with him.
So I lost 1.6 pounds since my last weigh in, and I was really happy with that. The last time I had weighed was the Wednesday before Thanksgiving, so on that loss was Thanksgiving eating, and three days of not so great eating while trying to get the hang of the new plan. So I will definitely take it. I’m excited for this weeks weigh in, especially if I can keep rocking the plan the way I have been. I’m really really hoping that even though the holidays are this month I can still manage to lose the 5 or 6 pounds I want too.
Other than that, not too much going on here in Michigan. I’m waiting for the Baseball winter meetings to see how my Tigers round out for next year, and then of course excited to get to the College Football Bowl Games, but other than that, Nothing terribly exciting.
Hope everyone has healthy and OP week!
This weekend was good, especially eating wise. I did great and stayed OP all weekend, I’ve been such a good little WW’r! And to make it better, I’m learning to stick to the new plan! I’m loving that fruit (and veggies) are free, even if it did mean that points of my other favorites went up.
DH is also doing very very well staying OP. About the only time he complains is on Sundays when we go out to eat with family and everything is so many points, and he can’t get what he normally eats. But this first week back OP from his Thanksgiving Eating (and leftovers), he lost almost 7 pounds, I’m sure some of which was water weight from eating so bad. But still, way to go DH. He only has about 10 more pounds until he gets where he would like to be. I hope it takes him a month or two at least, because with him, it’s not so much about the Weight Loss as I’m trying to teach him to make smarter choices, and portion control.
DH was never one of those guys that had a weight problem (and really, even today, he is only about 10lbs over weight). In fact, when DH and I met in 2004, he was about 60lbs lighter than he is today. He HAD a hyperactive thyroid, and he could literally eat ANYTHING he wanted and not gain an ounce (hence the beginning to my weight issue!). Well overtime, his hyperactive thyroid has become normal, and he no longer can eat anything, and unfortunately his eating style didn’t change, hence the 60lbs of gained weight in 6 years.
So really for him, this isn’t about losing the weight, although I do think it will help lower his cholesterol, give him more energy and just in general make him feel better. It’s more about learning healthy eating habits and maintaining a healthy weight. It’s easy to let your weight get out of control before you know it, and I didn’t want to see that happen with him.
So I lost 1.6 pounds since my last weigh in, and I was really happy with that. The last time I had weighed was the Wednesday before Thanksgiving, so on that loss was Thanksgiving eating, and three days of not so great eating while trying to get the hang of the new plan. So I will definitely take it. I’m excited for this weeks weigh in, especially if I can keep rocking the plan the way I have been. I’m really really hoping that even though the holidays are this month I can still manage to lose the 5 or 6 pounds I want too.
Other than that, not too much going on here in Michigan. I’m waiting for the Baseball winter meetings to see how my Tigers round out for next year, and then of course excited to get to the College Football Bowl Games, but other than that, Nothing terribly exciting.
Hope everyone has healthy and OP week!
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Weigh In
Well just a quick Weigh In post! I weighed this morning and lost 1.6 pounds! I'm more then happy with that!
Enjoy your Saturdays!
Enjoy your Saturdays!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
December Goals
Ok, so I was MIA yesterday, but I swear, I’m not dropping back off the blogging bandwagon! I first want to touch on some goals for December, and then hit on some struggles I’m having, primarily with the new WW program.
First, I want to set three goals for December
1. Run, Try to get in most, if not all of my scheduled runs. I understand sickness can happen and sideline things, or an injury, but don’t “opt out” of runs I could normally go on.
2. Stay OP as well as possible, giving myself a lenient Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Being lenient on myself seemed to work best for Thanksgiving, so that will be my stance on the Christmas Holidays as well. New Years shouldn’t be much of an issue for me.
3. Hmm, now for Weight Loss Goals. I think I’m going to shoot for losing 6lbs in the month of December, that would put me at 156.4lbs when I weigh in on Christmas Day (which I may just move up to Christmas Eve morning). I really think I can do this. I’ve been running and doing pretty well OP (barring a few issues this week), so 6 pounds it is.
Well there the goals are. I will definitely include them in a wrap up at the end of December. I’m looking forward to a positive December and feeling A LOT better.
It’s amazing to me that I’ve only been back on WW’s for a couple weeks, but I feel so so much better. Even my clothes already fit better (albeit not as well as I would like them to fit), but it’s just amazing what some exercise and eating right can do for your body. You often forget how good you can feel when you’ve gotten stuck in a rut of gaining weight and feeling bad. But I’m so glad to have that feeling back in my life, I’m happier this way.
Ok, so my new feelings about the new WW’s plan. Well, I like it in principle. I was doing a lot of the things they are trying to promote through the new plan, already on the Old Plan, I tried to pick healthy, less processed foods, and eat a lot of fruits and veggies. But for some reason I can’t seem to get into the swing of the new plan, I have no idea why.
When I would lose a point before with WWs I always found it hard to adjust to having even just one less point I could spend throughout the day. Now, I’m dealing with having more points, and I feel like I should be able to go buck wild, and that’s exactly what happened yesterday. I don’t know why I can’t wrap my head around having more points (even tho my other stuff costs more points now).
So what am I doing? I’m stopping the bad days before I get too off plan, today I’m doing exactly what I was doing for the two weeks prior. I’m following the older points system, I will enter everything into the new points tracker eventually, but I’m doing EXACTLY what I’ve done before. I have routine, I like routine, and any upset to that throws me through a loop, so right now I’m doing what I know.
This doesn’t mean I won’t go over to the new plan, it just means for right now, I don’t want to get out of the groove I’ve been in, and I’m gonna stick with this.
I hope everyone is having a healthy and OP day!
First, I want to set three goals for December
1. Run, Try to get in most, if not all of my scheduled runs. I understand sickness can happen and sideline things, or an injury, but don’t “opt out” of runs I could normally go on.
2. Stay OP as well as possible, giving myself a lenient Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Being lenient on myself seemed to work best for Thanksgiving, so that will be my stance on the Christmas Holidays as well. New Years shouldn’t be much of an issue for me.
3. Hmm, now for Weight Loss Goals. I think I’m going to shoot for losing 6lbs in the month of December, that would put me at 156.4lbs when I weigh in on Christmas Day (which I may just move up to Christmas Eve morning). I really think I can do this. I’ve been running and doing pretty well OP (barring a few issues this week), so 6 pounds it is.
Well there the goals are. I will definitely include them in a wrap up at the end of December. I’m looking forward to a positive December and feeling A LOT better.
It’s amazing to me that I’ve only been back on WW’s for a couple weeks, but I feel so so much better. Even my clothes already fit better (albeit not as well as I would like them to fit), but it’s just amazing what some exercise and eating right can do for your body. You often forget how good you can feel when you’ve gotten stuck in a rut of gaining weight and feeling bad. But I’m so glad to have that feeling back in my life, I’m happier this way.
Ok, so my new feelings about the new WW’s plan. Well, I like it in principle. I was doing a lot of the things they are trying to promote through the new plan, already on the Old Plan, I tried to pick healthy, less processed foods, and eat a lot of fruits and veggies. But for some reason I can’t seem to get into the swing of the new plan, I have no idea why.
When I would lose a point before with WWs I always found it hard to adjust to having even just one less point I could spend throughout the day. Now, I’m dealing with having more points, and I feel like I should be able to go buck wild, and that’s exactly what happened yesterday. I don’t know why I can’t wrap my head around having more points (even tho my other stuff costs more points now).
So what am I doing? I’m stopping the bad days before I get too off plan, today I’m doing exactly what I was doing for the two weeks prior. I’m following the older points system, I will enter everything into the new points tracker eventually, but I’m doing EXACTLY what I’ve done before. I have routine, I like routine, and any upset to that throws me through a loop, so right now I’m doing what I know.
This doesn’t mean I won’t go over to the new plan, it just means for right now, I don’t want to get out of the groove I’ve been in, and I’m gonna stick with this.
I hope everyone is having a healthy and OP day!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
November Wrap
My Short and Sweet November Wrap-up, bullet point style.
• I’m working hard to stay on plan, prior to them switching the plan, I was doing fantastic. For some reason the new plan is throwing me through a loop, I don’t know if I see all those points and get giddy or what!
• We will see what my weight loss on Saturday brings to give a final, I lost X pounds in November, but I’m thinking I will have made my November goal of ending up at 162 pounds, which is a 2 pound loss in two weeks, with Thanksgiving thrown in there, not to shabby, a pound a week, I will take it.
• Running, I’ve been doing good running, and since I restarted, I haven’t missed a run. However I’m dealing with a little bit of bronchitis (which I have meds for!), so I will be taking tonight off, I will just make up the run another night this week in order to give my body some rest.
Other than that nothing terribly new. I’m just trying to adjust to the new plan, as I said for some reason I’m having a hard time, it’s like I see all those points (and I’m aware there aren’t really more points, it just seems that way!), but I just go nuts, so I’m trying to be gentle and remind myself, sometimes change can take a few days to get the hang of.
Tomorrow, December goals!
• I’m working hard to stay on plan, prior to them switching the plan, I was doing fantastic. For some reason the new plan is throwing me through a loop, I don’t know if I see all those points and get giddy or what!
• We will see what my weight loss on Saturday brings to give a final, I lost X pounds in November, but I’m thinking I will have made my November goal of ending up at 162 pounds, which is a 2 pound loss in two weeks, with Thanksgiving thrown in there, not to shabby, a pound a week, I will take it.
• Running, I’ve been doing good running, and since I restarted, I haven’t missed a run. However I’m dealing with a little bit of bronchitis (which I have meds for!), so I will be taking tonight off, I will just make up the run another night this week in order to give my body some rest.
Other than that nothing terribly new. I’m just trying to adjust to the new plan, as I said for some reason I’m having a hard time, it’s like I see all those points (and I’m aware there aren’t really more points, it just seems that way!), but I just go nuts, so I’m trying to be gentle and remind myself, sometimes change can take a few days to get the hang of.
Tomorrow, December goals!
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